I want to start off saying this is not meant to condemn, make someone feel inferior or challenge a mom's decision to work outside the home that the Lord told too do so. This blog is my feelings and experience that the Lord has done through my temporary working outside of the home.
So most of you know that my co-worker asked me to come fill in for her while she was in Mexico for 2 months. She asked me about this a year ago and I said yes.
I am working around 20 hours a week. Part time at my old place of employment before having kids. What the Lord has been speaking to me is wonderful. He has changed me, grew me, solidified me and loved me through this time.
First I'll talk about growing me: In this month I have had to change a lot of things, which has been a challenge. God proved to me that I could be a working mom and make it. I definitely thought I couldn't do it. However, it was God who truly has given me the strength to do it and it helps that it's temporary. :0)
Changed me: This time around I feel as I've worked I've done so with my whole heart serving as to the Lord. I feel that this time I have really had the Lord's heart with me as I worked. Working to help and serve others instead of trying to get by with as little effort as possible. I think that's how I worked most of the time before. Not all, but it was my outlook for the majority.
Loved me: The Lord loved me through this time. He has shown himself faithful in so much. I believe it was the Lord that my brother was with us in this season. It made leaving my kids so much easier. :) He has given me a lot more energy and strength for this time. Joe you're the best brother ever and uncle. I am the luckiest sister alive
Finally solidified: In this time he has solidified my desire to be a stay at home mom. This time has shown me that working outside of the home 3 days a week has shifted my focus. Now I am glad the Lord gave me this opportunity, because it came at the perfect time. I wouldn't change my decision at all. What I am saying is that working outside of the home is not what the Lord wants for me or my family permanently. It has become obvious to me that I am unable to serve my husband and my kids in the way God has asked me too and work outside of the home. The Lord has birthed a passion inside of me to take such good care of my family. A passion that he certainly put in me not something I did on my own. I have experienced how slowly my focus has become more about me and my job and less about my family. For this time it's what's necessary, but it's not what the Lord wants for ever to take place in my family. I have had less energy for my husband and kids while working outside of the home. I have less of a desire to cook as healthy. I have had less time to take my kids to fun places. I've had less time to have alone time with the hubby. All this to say I am a better lover to God, my husband and kids when the majority of my time is at home. It's shown me that the desire to be a stay at home mommy is of the Lord. It's shown me that even though being a stay at home mom is harder then working outside of the home it doesn't have to be less rewarding. It doesn't have to feel like a chore. Being a stay at home mom should be the greatest, most enjoyable, most important and most rewarding job I can have. But it takes the Lord to feel all those feelings each day. In my fleshly nature it's easy to only see the difficult, time consuming, constantly draining and selfless job it can be at times. But with the Lord's help I can see the former each and everyday I choose too.
I hope this encourages you, challenges you and inspires you. Thanks for listening. :D
